Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Comet In My Sky

Okay, here's another lyric inspired by the word "Comet" as per discussed in our chats. Had real trouble trying to use whatever things I feel about nights and comets - seriously, never seen one - A-HAH! This is what I came up after hours of scribbling and doodling on paper -

~ Comet In My Sky ~ lyrics by RaQueLa M.

You don't know who I am
One among a thousand fans
Admiration from afar
Idolizing who you are
Fascinated and fixated
By the self you created

Chorus:
You're a comet in my sky
Lighting my world in the night
Briefly you pass me by
You're the apple of my eye
A brilliant comet passing by

A thousand miles away
You seem light years ahead
Unreasonable longing
Unbearable suffering
I exist in nothingness
Wandering through darkness

Chorus:
You're a comet in my sky
Lighting my world in the night
Briefly you pass me by
You're the apple of my eye
A brilliant comet passing by

You are inspiration
I owe it all to you
My own personal star
Shining so bright
Lighting the darkest night
My comet in the sky

- copyrighted -

Friday, April 23, 2010

Of Dreams and Meeting the "Angkasawan"

Hehehe... Yesterday have got to be the most interesting day I've ever had this month. I was feeling rather "high" on happiness because it started out with my sis telling me she had a dream the night before which she had been dying to tell me. In her dream, she saw TH coming to Cat City for a visit and that I in the dream got so excited, dragged my sister along where they will be at The Waterfront. It looked like a handicraft festival, because there were stalls along the walkway, and my sis told me that Bill was there, talking as usual to the cameraman followed by their ever loyal groupies. In her dream, the groupies weren't screaming out like the usual fans they encounter in other parts of the world. Anyways, the fans here are cool. Many people, but not screaming like hell. He was taking a look at all the beaded section and according to my sis, we were there, standing at a close distance. The best part of it all is - no bodyguards! Hahaha! And then, Bill came from behind me and my sister, puts both his hands on our shoulders (almost like a hug) and asked us, "So, what do you think of these, girls?" and gave our shoulders a squeeze. XD My sis was saying "Eeeeww" on the inside, but she says I was acting giddy like a schoolgirl :p 

That - certainly got my mood raised despite knowing that my boss would be back in the office that day. Sorry, I know this is lame, but I can't get to meet all these people that I admire in my own dreams, the closest thing to having them in mine would be for others to have them for me.

Afternoon seem to come pretty fast - by the time I left, it was 2pm and I rushed to the bank for an errand then got home as quick as I can before heading to where my sis is working for a late lunch. I spent lunch alone, sitting in a corner writing down newer lyrics into my journal that comes into my head while people watching. After that, I went to the bookstore and got myself a copy of "Basic Accounting" textbook - not much of a choice read, but a must I'm afraid. The autograph signing was scheduled to be at 5 - 6pm in front of MPH Bookstore, but they had to shift the venue to the upper floor quad because opposite the bookstore is a lingerie store. Lol. XD

I had to wait for another hour before my sis finished work at 530pm, so I went all over the mall looking at outfits to mix and match. By the time it was 530pm, I got a bad cramp on my right foot. Ouch! And I wasn't even wearing heels. :( We met friends while waiting for our turn to take an autograph with the Angkasawan, and I'm surprised that the queue at Sushi King was waaaaay longer than the queue to take pictures and autograph with the Angkasawan himself. Poor man. I guess food is more favorable compared to an astronaut. Hee!

Oh, I wasn't expecting to exchange more than just a "Hi, could you sign my journal for me" with him, but here's the transcript of our short convo:

Me: Hi, could you sign my journal for me?
Dr. Sheikh: What's your name?
Me: Rachel - R-A-C-H-E-L
Dr. Sheikh: What do you do Rachel? (as he was signing)
Me: I'm an admin clerk, but I graduate in Music
Dr. Sheikh: Really? And when did you study in U.K?
Me: ? I didn't study in the U.K., I actually went to Australia to study :)
Dr. Sheikh: Then where did you get the U.K slang from? Or is it an Australian slang?
Me: ??!! No, I don't have a slang. It's my own (*grins, takes the journal from him) Can I take a picture with you?
Dr. Sheikh: Sure.

And that's how I got his autograph and picture to grace this blog and not to mention my journal. ;-)

Here's what he wrote in my journal ;-)

And here it is - with the man himself :-)

Thursday, April 22, 2010

~ Shadow Lover ~ by RaQueLa M.

I lay restless on my bed
Thoughts of you are in my head
Where are you now
Watcha doin' now
And I can't stop myself somehow
I need your attention
And please don't mention
Or make a suggestion 
For this to end
Because

I'm a shadow lover in love
Forever chasing your shadow
How far will I let this go
Obsession and pain
I lost all my senses
In love with your shadow
I'm a shadow lover

I can't believe it
The day we met
Seem somehow fated
Won't fade to black
I still can't believe it
You're still stuck in my mind
I'm not lettin' go of you this time
I need your attention
And please don't mention
Or make a suggestion
For this to end
Because

I'm a shadow lover in love
Forever chasing your shadow
How far will I let this go
Obsession and pain
I lost all my senses
In love with your shadow
I'm a shadow lover

You see
I fell for you who's on tv
Knowing it could never be
I wanna be a part of you
I need you to be a part of me
It's hard for me lettin' go
Because

I'm a shadow lover in love
Forever chasing your shadow
How far will I let this go
Obsession and pain
I lost all my senses
In love with your shadow
I'm a shadow lover

When I reach out for you
I touch only glass
Imagining how touching you
Would feel like
So I created a world out of shadows
The world of black and white
Where two shadows collide
Joined in flight
Two shadow lovers
Dissolving into ashes
Shadow lover...

-copyrighted-

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I'm Only Human

I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human - I'm only human...

Frustrations

My first impression sucks. I may look like a heartless and snobby bitch to others on the outside, but overall, I'm still just a girl. A girl who has feelings for the world around her when it hits a weak spot. In truth, I'm scared of the world out there. Daddy's girl? Hardly, but he tries to shield his girls as best as he can.

Everyday now, as I went to work sending my dad to his office in the morning, he has been drumming into my head about being a supportive and understanding "wife" to my "future husband". Yesterday morning, he actually talked about his feelings on his sister marrying a younger man half her age. That was really frustrating - I know that the marriage won't last, I've told my aunt before when she was asking for my opinion, but if she doesn't want to take my advice on it, it's her decision to make. Dad mentioned that even if it were his siblings, if they're not acting correctly, he'll voice out what he thinks to "check and balance" his family. Then he moved directly to the dreaded topic - M-A-R-R-I-A-G-E. I was already on automatic snooze when he said the word "marry", but it hits a sensitive topic when he mentioned "Don't marry a younger man, just to score points." I'm like !!!!!!

Where did he get the notion that I'll marry a younger guy? FYI dad - I'm not dating anyone, nor have I ever been out with anyone before because of You and Mom! I respect the rules you implemented on me for the past 15 years where You said "No dating with boys when you're in school while you're under my roof." Guess what - You win! I'm on the losing end - both socially, and mentally. I can't win if You start comparing me with my cousins like you always do since I'm young. Why me? Why did you have to compare me with them? Why not the youngest? Why not your boy? And why is it only NOW that You're talking to me? For the past 3 years, I can't even talk to You without having to mention Your Boy's name in the conversation for You to answer me back with actual interest to the conversation. That's when I said FORGET IT. I actually gave up on SPEAKING to You ever since.

Now that You're speaking to me, I don't think I want to listen. I can't take back what I lost in life - TIME. Tell me if losing your youth is not worth crying over.








Friday, April 16, 2010

Come Take Me Away...

Here's something new that I'm trying to write. Currently, this is how I feel - what with all the turbulence at home and being caught on neutral grounds which happens to be in the middle of the crossfire. Dreaming of my imaginary prince coming to take me away...

~"Come Take Me Away"~ Lyrics by RaQueLa V.

Lost in my thoughts
I stare out the window
The world passes by
What do they know
They only see
The little girl me
Staring widely
While my heart bleeds

Talks around me
Feeding me poison
Little by little
My faith lay broken
We could run away
If you come here someday
Come take me away
Come take me away

*Chorus:
Take me away from here
Far away from here
Anywhere but here
Where it's just you and me
Just you and me
Where we belong

I shut my eyes
I see you there
Reaching out, I
Touch only air
You are mine
We could run away
If you come here someday
Come take me away

*Chorus

From this pain
From these lies
Never again
Can you hear me
Save me, come and take me away

Take me away from here
Far, far away from here
Anywhere else but here
Where it's just you and me
Just you and me
Where we belong
Finally...

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Caught In the Middle...

Sometimes, I would wish I'm an immortal - no need to have food for sustenance. Thoughts of dying scares me sometimes, especially when you don't know what's life like beyond the living. 

Mom and dad are at it again - it began in the car yesterday on our way home from fetching dad from work. Luckily, both my sister and I have our own distractions. We plugged up and e-voided their arguments in the car by listening to music. I listened to my mp3 player while my sis listened to her own music through her iPod. They both have their own points which needed to be thought over.

They were still talking in loud voices when we reached home, so my sis and I hid in my room trying not to listen. When we could no longer take it, I took the car and spirited us away for awhile to the nearest place where we could have our dinner in peace - The Shopping Mall.That was where we stayed until I feel it was safe enough to go home.

I guess there's just no ending when it comes to this. People say things they don't mean at one point and they don't realize it. There's no taking back words though. It's not like you can undo what you said.